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Falling Up

Can we define Love as Trust? Do people fall out of love, or is there just a lack of trust? How does one illustrate love? How does one gain another's trust/love? Do you love someone, or just trust them? Can you trust them to love you?

Unrequited love... what is it that I want returned to me? What am I providing her with that she is not reciprocating back to me? Can I trust myself to love another? Do I trust her? Does she trust me? Do I love her? Does she love me?

Can someone trust a liar? If I lie to my boss, but show positive results; can he trust me? If I lie and tell her I love her; can she trust me? If I lie to myself enough, do I trust what I say is true? If she tells me she loves me, I trust her... but why? If I lie and tell her I love her, will she know it's a lie? Or is she just as foolish as I?

What if I lie, and say that she loves me... can it come true?

Unacceptable

Is it really that wrong for a man to show a little emotion? Do all men have to be the burly, hairy, deep-voiced, cigar-chomping, sword-wielding, battle-crying, emotion-less type for girls/guys to accept them?

I'll admit, that I am one of the few guys that likes to express my emotions (This is apparent from just reading a few of my previous entries). Due to the fact that I am such an emotional guy, especially one that likes to divulge these emotions, I do get a lot of negative criticism from guys and girls... What I don't get is; why can't a man ask to be loved? Is it really that much of a turn off for girls when a man yearns for a woman's comfort? For a man to desire a woman to actually say "I Miss You". For a guy to want to hear from his woman "I love you"?

Okay, well this is going nowhere so I'll say this; I'm that guy. I'm the guy that wants to hear "I miss you." I'm the guy that wants needs to be loved. I'm the guy that goes head over heels for a girl. I'm the guy that wants to tell the world that he's found the one. I'm the guy that gives it his all for her. I'm that guy. So if you have a problem with me... F*CK OFF

Emotions

Life is like a roller-coaster ride, everyone has their ups and downs. Some stay up longer than others, and vice versa. Im going to blame the destructive weather we've been having; I'm down.

Played basketball the other day; did nothing. Downloaded some old school games I used to play back in the day; Diablo II. Made a Necro, went out of town, killed 2 of those little red creature things and uninstalled it. Watched The Watchmen, sucked. Started watching Terminator Salvation, turned it off 45 seconds in.

I'm sure everyone's gone through this a few times, nothing seems to pick me up. Spending time with my girlfriend does the trick, but I end up in the dumps as soon as I leave. Sometimes I find myself daydreaming, and when I snap out of it, I can't even remember what it was I was so preoccupied with. It feels like somethings missing.

Summer vacation... yeah right. If you can call working 40 hours a week a vacation. But no complaints, because I mean... you gotta get paid right? Word. Well I don't know what it is...

Maybe it's because I'm not really living. I mean, naturally, there are things I want to do, things I yearn for. I've got dreams; aspirations and goals, maybe I should start living towards these things.

I want to skip work and have a picnic. I want to sing a song for someone. I want to go bike riding. I want to play tennis. I want to eat a fat steak for lunch. I want to host a party. I want to be enthralled in a conversation about the meaning of life. I want to spend time with my childhood friends. I want to watch the sunset/sunrise. I want to eat candy for breakfast, and pancakes for dinner. I want to cry on a shoulder, and I want to be the shoulder to cry on. I want to be someone's mentor for a day. I want to learn something new and exciting, like how to ollie on a skateboard...

But for some reason, I can't make myself do these things. Life is full of responsibilities and obligations... so where do we go from here?