Life is like a roller-coaster ride, everyone has their ups and downs. Some stay up longer than others, and vice versa. Im going to blame the destructive weather we've been having; I'm down. Played basketball the other day; did nothing. Downloaded some old school games I used to play back in the day; Diablo II. Made a Necro, went out of town, killed 2 of those little red creature things and uninstalled it. Watched The Watchmen, sucked. Started watching Terminator Salvation, turned it off 45 seconds in.
I'm sure everyone's gone through this a few times, nothing seems to pick me up. Spending time with my girlfriend does the trick, but I end up in the dumps as soon as I leave. Sometimes I find myself daydreaming, and when I snap out of it, I can't even remember what it was I was so preoccupied with. It feels like somethings missing.
Summer vacation... yeah right. If you can call working 40 hours a week a vacation. But no complaints, because I mean... you gotta get paid right? Word. Well I don't know what it is...
Maybe it's because I'm not really living. I mean, naturally, there are things I want to do, things I yearn for. I've got dreams; aspirations and goals, maybe I should start living towards these things.
I want to skip work and have a picnic. I want to sing a song for someone. I want to go bike riding. I want to play tennis. I want to eat a fat steak for lunch. I want to host a party. I want to be enthralled in a conversation about the meaning of life. I want to spend time with my childhood friends. I want to watch the sunset/sunrise. I want to eat candy for breakfast, and pancakes for dinner. I want to cry on a shoulder, and I want to be the shoulder to cry on. I want to be someone's mentor for a day. I want to learn something new and exciting, like how to ollie on a skateboard...
But for some reason, I can't make myself do these things. Life is full of responsibilities and obligations... so where do we go from here?
