Falling Up

Can we define Love as Trust? Do people fall out of love, or is there just a lack of trust? How does one illustrate love? How does one gain another's trust/love? Do you love someone, or just trust them? Can you trust them to love you?

Unrequited love... what is it that I want returned to me? What am I providing her with that she is not reciprocating back to me? Can I trust myself to love another? Do I trust her? Does she trust me? Do I love her? Does she love me?

Can someone trust a liar? If I lie to my boss, but show positive results; can he trust me? If I lie and tell her I love her; can she trust me? If I lie to myself enough, do I trust what I say is true? If she tells me she loves me, I trust her... but why? If I lie and tell her I love her, will she know it's a lie? Or is she just as foolish as I?

What if I lie, and say that she loves me... can it come true?

Unacceptable

Is it really that wrong for a man to show a little emotion? Do all men have to be the burly, hairy, deep-voiced, cigar-chomping, sword-wielding, battle-crying, emotion-less type for girls/guys to accept them?

I'll admit, that I am one of the few guys that likes to express my emotions (This is apparent from just reading a few of my previous entries). Due to the fact that I am such an emotional guy, especially one that likes to divulge these emotions, I do get a lot of negative criticism from guys and girls... What I don't get is; why can't a man ask to be loved? Is it really that much of a turn off for girls when a man yearns for a woman's comfort? For a man to desire a woman to actually say "I Miss You". For a guy to want to hear from his woman "I love you"?

Okay, well this is going nowhere so I'll say this; I'm that guy. I'm the guy that wants to hear "I miss you." I'm the guy that wants needs to be loved. I'm the guy that goes head over heels for a girl. I'm the guy that wants to tell the world that he's found the one. I'm the guy that gives it his all for her. I'm that guy. So if you have a problem with me... F*CK OFF

Emotions

Life is like a roller-coaster ride, everyone has their ups and downs. Some stay up longer than others, and vice versa. Im going to blame the destructive weather we've been having; I'm down.

Played basketball the other day; did nothing. Downloaded some old school games I used to play back in the day; Diablo II. Made a Necro, went out of town, killed 2 of those little red creature things and uninstalled it. Watched The Watchmen, sucked. Started watching Terminator Salvation, turned it off 45 seconds in.

I'm sure everyone's gone through this a few times, nothing seems to pick me up. Spending time with my girlfriend does the trick, but I end up in the dumps as soon as I leave. Sometimes I find myself daydreaming, and when I snap out of it, I can't even remember what it was I was so preoccupied with. It feels like somethings missing.

Summer vacation... yeah right. If you can call working 40 hours a week a vacation. But no complaints, because I mean... you gotta get paid right? Word. Well I don't know what it is...

Maybe it's because I'm not really living. I mean, naturally, there are things I want to do, things I yearn for. I've got dreams; aspirations and goals, maybe I should start living towards these things.

I want to skip work and have a picnic. I want to sing a song for someone. I want to go bike riding. I want to play tennis. I want to eat a fat steak for lunch. I want to host a party. I want to be enthralled in a conversation about the meaning of life. I want to spend time with my childhood friends. I want to watch the sunset/sunrise. I want to eat candy for breakfast, and pancakes for dinner. I want to cry on a shoulder, and I want to be the shoulder to cry on. I want to be someone's mentor for a day. I want to learn something new and exciting, like how to ollie on a skateboard...

But for some reason, I can't make myself do these things. Life is full of responsibilities and obligations... so where do we go from here?

Manning up...

Why My Life Sucks as explained by...

Young Kim

"I will explain why your life sucks, by asking just three questions;

1. What was the last thing you spent money on that you really wanted?
2. How much money do you currently have, after working 40+ hours a week for 2 years?
3. When are you getting the MacBook that you've wanted since last year?"